Heart Vacancy

One thing

2012-03-12T00:24:00.001+08:00

Sup!

It's been almost a month since i last posted.
I know this place is severely lacked of posts but i've been so overwhelmed by jc life like whoa.
I now understand the meaning of a true muggertoad (Y)
Evolving in progress or i'll prolly die a terrible death, surrounded by elites everyday ._.

Gets so so so demoralizing at times and i'm so thankful for a pretty nice clsss (: and for all the other people who've been constantly catching up with me and supporting me when i'm on the brink of tears! It's kinda saddening though when it feels as if some seemed to have left my life. You dont talk to them, they dont bother to talk to you :( mmmh.
Yep you get the gist of it.

March hols now = catching up with tutorials.
Sighhhhhhh :(

An even sadder note: i have 131 sandfly bites and still counting.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HEAL QUICKLY :(

2012-02-13T16:17:00.001+08:00

"i dont need anything else. You're more than enough."
Awwwww :')

Rafblood

2012-02-05T22:31:00.000+08:00

Okay, so jc life has officially started for me. The night before school started was not as overwhelming as i thought it'd be, probably because i was having a really heartwarming steamboat with lovely people. (who actually wasnt encouraging at all about me entering a foreign and a super intimidating school, but they're just nice to be with so..ya)

Many people have been asking me what i've been doing throughout my whole holidays. And somehow, i find that i run out of things to tell them. It kinda revolved around going out all the time.

The ironic thing is, I've been keeping myself busy throughout the holidays so that i'll look back now and find that i've made my holiday worthwhile instead of lazing around all the time...

BUT, okay, even though i cant tell them the exact things i did, i knew i've spent the best holidays i've ever had. No overseas trip and whatever but chasing my dreams and learning how to bake, volunteering for CIP and feeling damn good after that, shopping sprees and housework, catching up with old friends, kbox craze, mad drinking, working, chalets, bbqs, outings, whoaaaaaaa :]

No regrets (Y)

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SO HOW WAS ORIENTATION!
It started out really scary because out of the 19people in my group, 15 were not from JAE LOL! But i slowly got used to it. And and and and of course, i definitely wont miss out how tiring it was to wake up at 530 in the morning when my norm for the past few months was at 12noon -_- My stomach was like attacking itself because it was supposed to be asleep (I'M SERIOUS).

Anyway, it was really good for the next few days (: I love war games. It gets so rough and muddy but it's really fun!! (: Mass dance was awkwardly fun toooo and the batch song was good!! Felt so weird to be cheering for raffles instead of AHS.. ): hmph. Whatever it is, I think their cheers are really powerful O:

I guess OG dinners really bonded us, staying out late in dirty shoes when it's no more at simei or tampines or pasir ris!! ): And I'm really glad that i went for all, and insisted on staying for finale (ITS LIKE THE BESTTTT) even though the fever was killing me. SO, YAY ISTORIA 2012 AND YAY HH07, I LOVE HADLEY HULLETT :D

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Back to now.
I am still suffering under the hands of the automatic heater in my forehead and cheeks. It's been...5DAYS OF FEVER -_-
Goodnight earth, i havent died yet, love you guys too (:

How do i choose between my head and heart

2012-01-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

Before my iphone screws up and my January events deletes itself, i shall blog.

10&11Jan

JC openhouses!

12Jan

WORK AND EARNED MORE MONEY.

Headed to class chalet. Great time spent with those people and funny games of werewolf and indian poker (:

13Jan

With severe lack of sleep (3hours?) from class chalet, we went back to AHS for CCA showcase! :D Hahaha, i really like the feeling of singing in the parade square when the weather's really good. I wont say i miss MD, but i miss band loads O:

14Jan

Service & Midnight movie! (:

15Jan

I FORGOT.

16Jan

Send mouktita off!

Met Hannah and Guangjun and headed to Veganburg to treat the birthday boy (: Hunted for good dessert shops and met up with the lovebirds at Vivo for good dessert yay! :D Abolished plans to go to sentosa cause it was really hot, and being a spoilt and paranoid-of-the-sun-ever-since-i-got-badly-burnt kid, I strongly opposed to going sentosa hahaha. So sorry hannahchong!

Slacked and talked and iloveHABA (:

17Jan

Shopping with Shijie, Joscelin, Kendra, Lynnette, Adeline, Weilin! (:

Good food for dinner with family and ahgong (:

18Jan

Shopping with mummy! And we came back too late for me to bake ): It's gonna be hard to find time to bake anytime soon since school's about to start and i'm really upset about it :/ Oh wellz.

Anyway, chinatown with daddy and mummy at night! (:

19Jan

GREAT TITANIC EXPERIENCE WITH XIAOQIAN XIAOQUAN AMANDA KENDRA :D

THE ICEBERG IS SO COOL.

AND MY CHARACTER IS STILL ALIVE.

I think it's so cool to be at the bottom of the ocean O:

20Jan

I FORGOT.

21Jan

Fleaaaaaa with Xiaoqian Xiaoquan Kendra (:

Service!! :D

22Jan

New Year's eve at grandma's! Steamboat was goooooood and there was the usual slacking time + sparkles at the playground!

23Jan&24Jan

BAINIAN.

25Jan

Bainian at Amanda's! (: Watched 2 movies in a day!

26Jan

Bainian with HABA, then met Yunjin for dinner before my contacts started to stab my eye a 1000times till i teared all the way home from Tampines. Ow.

27Jan

Bainian with GB (: Watched another movie and had great fun playing cards and LIFE.

It's saturday. School's on tuesday.

I. Am. So. Scared.

I dont get how everyone's so excited for jc because i really am not ): Maybe i think too much, i think far past making new friends and new starts and orientation. I think about negative stuff and how i'm going to die in a foreign place.

Ok, touch wood. I shall not say bad stuff since it's cny or i'll lose my money hmph.

Goodnight earth.

I'm a happy girl today, but i'm kinda sad too.

No, i cant use ambivalence here ._.

2012-01-26T00:45:00.002+08:00

God, I am so scared. Please guide me.

2012-01-25T23:28:00.001+08:00

2012-01-23T02:15:00.001+08:00

God-sent words while i'm tearing and flipping a magazine.

There are times however when things just simply do not work and you have to learn to change gears and 'let go' of the original concept you have in mind.

2012-01-19T23:47:00.001+08:00

You can leave me if you want. I'll remember you. I remember everyone that leaves.

Play it loud

2012-01-18T00:04:00.002+08:00

I've been looking under rocks and breaking logs, just trying to find you.

Youtopia

2012-01-16T21:45:00.000+08:00

Colour the dusk, deep navy blue
And try to be brave
'cause I'll be right beside you
There's a world so high
Hold out your hands
And you can go anywhere
So reach for the stars
'cause I'll be waiting up there
And you can finally fly
'cause you'll be lighter than air
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Sent Mouktita off today, but i didn't get to send Christie off yesterday ):
Watching them leave seemed to empty a big part of my heart. I keep telling myself they'll be coming back, but I really think everything would be so different when they're back. I'm so afraid of what's gonna happen in the future. I'm so afraid of losing the people i love so dearly right now. And no matter how much i might want to hold on to them forever, I'm so afraid i wont have the ability to do so in time to come.

I really am not as strong as everyone thinks.
;_;

Rain over me

2012-01-09T23:40:00.003+08:00

I've been lagging behind on my updates whoops. And i'm kinda lazy nowwww but okayzxc beware, long post ahead...

25 December
Christmas celebration at Grandma's (:

26 December
Baked @ Chearmin's for farewell!

27 December
GB Farewell! (: Was really a great time spent with the juniors and fellow batchmates. Love them so much xoxo.

28 December
I forgot what i did.

29 December
Went to work at VS again. Uniform sales was really messy but at the end of the day, it was really accomplishing (: Went home to bathe before heading to Thanksgiving chalet at Aloha Changi! (: I had a really great time with E490 (: Dancing & Playing & Cooking & Tonning & Pillow fights and snatching blankets and whatsnot & really just appreciating each other and thanking God for everything in 2011 (:

30 December
Shag like mad after Thanksgiving, so i spent the whole day sleeping in LOL

31 December

Service then met the 1A gang for new year countdown! :D Dinner at Muscle Guy and we got to enjoy 10seconds of fireworks!

Boardwalked to Sentosaaaaa! The boardwalk was really really really pretty, a recommended dating spot HAHA.

Went for icecream at candylicious, walked around and headed back to the boardwalk for countdown! :D

We got to enjoy fireworks from 3 areas - Vivo, USS and Sentosa! It was such an amazing experience and i'm happy because i got to see fireworks and countdown with some other crazy people at the board walk haha. Well at least i got to countdown unlike last year (:

Strolled back and MRT to my house! Surprisingly, the MRT was really empty O: O: O:
Ton with TV, MTVs, Mahjong, Bridge, Hearts, German Bridge for the whole night + Macs breakfast!
Second year crossing the new year with my dear ones and i really hope we'll continue to do such stuff in years to come! (:

1 January
I think i slept throughout. Then went to Grandma's! (:

2 January & 3 January
I forgot what i did. Probably helped mummy to clean up the house! O:
OH I BAKED ON 3January WHOOHOO! :D Was really successful even though it was my first attempt with no guidance. Super duper uber accomplished!

4 January & 5 January
Went back to school for Sec1 orientation (: Great to see the councillors again! Moreover, 5Jan was Bad Karma Day's 1st year anniversary AND cuiwen&caihao's second year anniversary whoohooo (: Awesome 18chefs dinner with batchmates! (:

6 January
Woke up really early and headed to 313 to camp (Like from 10am to 4pm kinda camppppp) with Lynnette and Adeline. Ate and talk while waiting for Shijie's work break so that we could surprise her. We got so bored and being girls, we naturally ended up taking photos HAHA.

Ended up watching Sherlock Holmes at Cineleisure while waiting hehe.
Surprised the birthday girl and she was like OMG O: O: O: O: O:!!!! It was such a successful surprise because she was TOTALLY clueless yayyyy (:

Hahaha, met Kendra after that and we proceeded to A&F whoohoooo! Honestly, it's such a cool place with hawttt guys gosh.

Dinner at Seoul Garden Hotpot with EXTREMELY good service :D

Saboteur @ Scape outside 98.7fm :DD
DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING CRAZY AND WE KNOCKED ON 98.7's WINDOW WITH THIS...

AND DEVIAN NODDED HIS HEAD AND WE WENT HYSTERIC!
What a memorable day. Happy 17th my dearest Gwee, xoxo!

7 January
TJC Openhouse with gbmates! Met Hazel :D :D

Collected scholarship and met many other primary school friends (:
Celebrated Uncle's birthday with goooood foooood and good entertainment from the lil kids (:

She unfriended me the other week, but friended me again this week HAHAHA.
I love her for making my day (:

8 January
I dyed my hair to dark brown and it looks realllllly black now ):
Spend my day at Grandma's! + SUPER GOOD CHOCS FROM USA WHOOHOO!

9 January
Thank God for really good results! :D
Left for DinTaiFung with Kendra, Joscelin, Lynnette and Adeline!

XIAOLONGBAOS FOR THE WIN WHOOHOOOO!

Cheers to great results (!!)

Starbucks after Kendra left!

Thennnn, good food at Lena's with Mummy & Daddy!

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That pretty much sums up everything.
Looking forward to making my last few weeks of holiday really great and happening!
Goodnight Earth (:

Need you like i've never needed anyone before

2012-01-07T23:04:00.001+08:00

So so saddening how only a 2year old can make me feel worthy at this point of time. Like she really needs and loves me when she gives me a hug or when she holds my hand or when she gives me her balloon and lollipop. What is this disgusting and sick feeling that makes me think that i'm so worthless.

I really need a hug now :(

2012-01-04T21:58:00.001+08:00

‎"I wondered what happened when you offered yourself to someone, and they opened you, only to discover you were not the gift they expected and they had to smile and nod and say thank you all the same."— Jodi Picoult (My Sister's Keeper)

Ahh, that feeling.

2012-01-04T21:22:00.000+08:00

Am having this impulse to hold on tightly to everything and everyone now and not let go ): ): ):
I'm so sadddddddd.

2012-01-02T22:36:00.003+08:00

Kinder bueno + Pudding milk tea + Running Man
Ohhhhhh the indulgenceeee~

But ohhhhh, the fats ._.

Make it happen.

2012-01-02T17:47:00.001+08:00

2012!

Please be good.

Right, so it's 2Jan2012 now (:

I crossed the year with lovely people so close to my heart.

I'm gonna miss 2011 so badly. Many many bittersweet moments but to round it all up, i'd say 2011 had been a really really great year for me. Yes, ups and downs everywhere but through it all, I've had people, at least one person, who was there to lend me a shoulder to cry on. I'd never forget how i cried through 2 periods of chinese lol.

Lost friends. I believe it's something that's unavoidable. I mean, it takes two hands to clap. I can be holding on so tightly to one end of the rope, but at the end of the day.. Oh well :/

On a happier note, i made new friends too (: I found myself a new family in the house of God. Idk where the next phase of life is gonna bring me to, but i'll do all i can to keep them with me.

Whatever it is, there's so many people I'm thankful for in 2011. Really, every small thing warms my heart. And as i type this, there are many many many faces appearing in my mind (: Thank you so much for walking with me, you know who you are, i love you guys! :D

I remember a year back, i was so afraid of becoming Sec4. And now, I am so afraid of entering JC.

I'll miss AHS, so so much. I'll miss the school, I'll miss the people, I'll miss the teachers, I'll miss lying in the parade square and stargazing, I'll miss running around the school at night like we own it, I'll miss doing stupid stuff in the Eagle's Nest and Council Room, I'll miss the muralboard, I'll miss CCA showcases with all the other UGs, I'll miss smacking wet hands on people's uniform, I'll miss R&E icecream and WHERE IS MY CHOCOLATE BEANCCURD ):

No joke, I'll miss everything in AHS, awwmanzxc ):

Life goes on in 2012.

And I really really hope it would be a good year.

I am so afraid of starting all over again, but I guess, it's good to start the year with an open heart, knowing that God will never put me through something that i do not have the ability to go through (:

Never had a new year resolution, so i won't have it this year either haha.

HAPPY 2012 EARTHLINGS.

Fighting!

All i want for Christmas is you

2011-12-25T06:53:00.002+08:00

It's 6.35am, early Christmas morning. Haven't slept. Was supposed to be a good tonning session. I mean, it was good, but oh well, not good inside. Merry Christmas anyway (: And since i'm online, i thought i might as well post an update on the last few days!

20Dec
Out with HABA before jiaying left singapore (: Playnation was great with those people!!

21Dec
First day of work at VS. Time passed really fast and after hours of moving stuff here and there, slacking around, setting up the store and briefing, work ended (: Good catch ups with Gwee and Weilin and the many many many incidents on "THE WORLD IS SO SMALL!" It really is, omg.

Chionged off to do joscelin's card and prepare for her birthday surprise.
Camped at her void deck and surprise surprise, we're so awesome because it totalllllllly shocked her like mad HAHA.
Headed to Fish&Co express for dinner and another surprise birthday song + cake touched her so much that she cried, aw (:
Spent the next few hours laughing with the 3 other DIs (Whoa, what a coincidence haha) and being public nuisances (:
HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY JOSCELIN DARLING :D

22 Dec
Second day of work at VS. First few hours were pretty busy but i think Jean and I were great partners WHOOHOO. We have no problems with our moneyyyyy yay (: Slacked around, laughed alot, helped as much as we could, made new friends whom i probably wont meet again, carolling and zihighing continuously and receiving our pays after 2 days of not-very-hard-but-pretty-accomplishing-work (:

Bus-ed to ECP. And i walked #likealoner in jeans from the bus stop to ECP to areaC to areaB where the pit was. IT TOOK FREAKING 50MINS ._. I wanted to cry and die on the way. Thank God for Bryan (: Was certainly a great time spent catching up with the councillors and making friends with new councillors!
Ps. Andrew is my rubbish and i am his bin :D

23 Dec
Went for Christmas Service (: Drama production was reallllllyyyyy good :D

24 Dec
Celebrated christmas at Aunt's house (: Loads of good food, and loads of good time spent playing with the lil kids who never fails to make me smile. Unfortunately, the boys were getting too violent and i had to leave them hahaha. Went bugis with John and sis before taking the MRT home. HE TREATED US TO GOOD ICECREAM :DD

Mahjong + Bridge + Runningman + Eating + Drinking alotttttttt since 11pm last night.
My stomach is tremendously bloated and uncomfortable from all the wine and beer, I think i am gonna puke soon. Heineken sucks so much. I think Tiger is still a preferred choice.

So other than the physical discomfort, there's the mental(?) discomfort. Still so lost at what i'm supposed to do now. I cannot imagine losing a friend i love so much. Again.
In conclusion, I just feel so bad now. And the beds are all occupied so i have to wait for someone to wake up before i can sleepppppp this guilt away urghhhhhhh.

On a brighter note, it's christmas! (:
Yea, okay.
Merry Christmas, ciaos!

2011-12-25T04:31:00.002+08:00

I said something wrong again.
You know the guilt really really kills.
It sends buckets of tears flowing, and i'm at a loss at what i can do or what i should do.
Oh God, why am i always saying the wrong things ):

I am so so so sorry my dear, I honestly never meant it the way you thought it was.

2011-12-25T03:52:00.001+08:00

Why am i even trying.

2011-12-21T00:00:00.004+08:00

I will take this in my stride.
I will take this in my stride.
I will take this in my stride.
I will take this in my stride.

How, do you get up from an all time low.

2011-12-20T18:43:00.001+08:00

I'm in pieces, so many pieces.
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Sometimes, i just like giving people options to see what their final decision would be.
Gets abit disappointing at times but I'm okay.

Though behind every it's okay, there's always that little bit of hurt.
Nah, i guess i'll get over it.

We might as well be playing with lighning

2011-12-19T21:29:00.002+08:00

It's been an eventful weekend, and a great start to a new week.

January is nearing, but i really dont want the holidays to end so quickly. It's been such a wonderful and exciting holiday really and i just completed my last task on my "To-do's after O's (:" list today - Shopping with Yunjin! (: But there's still so many things i wish to do, i havent visited Henderson's wave and played mahjong and stayed out all night and yeah okay, i'm dreading school to start again ):

Anyway, baked with Chearmin on Thursday (: It was really fun and we were trying different shapes. Though some turned out pretty ugly, at least i completed my Fat Boy nicely for Pug :D

This skinny...

THIS FAT HAHAHA

A pretty successful domo with a broken body O:

Chearmin's smiley, my smiley, baby domo, heart-shape :D

Saturday was gooooood and accomplishing (: CIP with Hannah and Emmaus EFC. Thank God that everything wasnt a scam. Even though i dont know a single person at EEFC and have never met them before, i bravely discarded all negative thoughts and encouraged myself not to give up on the community work i wanted to do after O's. It was tough not backing out halfway because they were asking for our personal particulars and i was so afraid that somemone was using EEFC's name and that the CIP was actually to like lure us out, kidnap us and sell us away LOL.

So, we ran around Serangoon, combed blocks and knocked door to door to ask people for food (: I DIDNT MEET ANY DOGS PHEW. Our group was super duper uber efficient yay :D

Thankful for Hannah who woke up so early to do this with me (: Love you!

Went for first candlelight service after that! Was really really great! Indeed, when there is God, there is light. And light removes all darkness (:

Pretty pretty candles!

YAY SO GLAD YUCHENG CAME :D

Cynthiaaa! :D
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Sunday - went for second candlelight service with Guangjun. MRT was screwed up, so i had to wake up really early to reach suntec. Thank God for daddy!! (: It was like recapping on Saturday's service haha, which was good. I felt like i absorbed more and even though it was really tiring to wake up early, i certainly didnt regret it. Candlelights were beautiful as well, i am so going to make everyone who attends my wedding light a candle :D

Feliz Navidad is still my all time favourite Christmas song!

Slacked at Grandma's after that! (:

Today - Shopping with Yunjin! :D Anchorpoint has SUPER SUPER SUPER CHEAP AND PRETTY SHOES. Omg, factory outlets ftw! I didnt buy any though ._. Was pretty sure i'd get murdered when i get home if i did buy another pair of shoes ): I want my $42.90 heels boohoo.

Headed to bugis after that when i couldnt buy anything at Anchorpoint. Spent $35 on 2 tops, a dress and a scarf. Accomplished max yay! Quality time spent with my dearest purple ball (:

My december calendar is fully packed O: I never had dots on all days in a month on my calendar before!

Alright, running man now!

Ciaos!

2011-12-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

What's better than to be eating good rum&raisin icecream and walking around Clark Quay with great company on a Friday night (:

A thousand years

2011-12-15T00:50:00.003+08:00

Salvation army kettling today with Hannah! Was more exhausting than the previous time and people were more unfriendly D:

Met pugggggggg for gongcha and movie at PlazaSing after that (: Free treats yay! Already Famous is a pretty good show for me. I thought there were many funny parts and the fat boy is seriously cute max. Enjoyed the movie even though my shoulders were burning and my right eye was dying from idk-what-happened-to-my-contact-lens! Dinner @ pastamania (again) after that (:

Was really quality time spent with pug!

1AM.

Goodnight (:

Oh kite, keep flying!

2011-12-13T21:05:00.011+08:00

IT IS SO WARM NOW.

No, wait, warm is an understatement.

I FEEL LIKE I'M ON FIRE.

Stupid sun ):

Finally met my dearest girl on the 10Dec (: & we scheduled our budget shopping date at the end of the month, i cant wait! Love you! :D

11Dec was Bernard's wedding (:

It's been a long time since i've attended a wedding! Haha, and i truly felt so so happy for them. The morning and afternoon was spent slacking around at his house + Running Man + pretending to be entertained by small kid + Eating & Watching TV. Home again for Running Man before heading off to Amara Hotel in the evening (: My make-up skills are yijibang now yayyyyy!

It felt like prom all over again because i was in the same dress and shoes. Okay, but my hair colour, make-up and accessories are different. Furthermore, the venue was GREAT, the food was GOOD and it's kinda considered free for me i guess? O:

Ahhhh, and i drank so much red wine after such a long time, whoohoo. The shiokness is instantaneous.

Happy marriage, my dearest cousin! (:

12Dec Monday, i went swimming alone at 8.45am in the morning. That's another thing striked off my "To-do after O's (:" list! Completed 40 laps (length) without rest and i am super duper uber proud of myself. Unfortunately, i've deproved reallllllyyyyy badly in my freestyle ._. I get tired after half a lap of freestyle when i used to be able to swim 1.5laps LOL! Shall train (:

THEN, i went shifu's house to bake! YAY. Chocolate chip cookies and huat kueh! (: They were all successful, duh, like nothing goes wrong when shifu's around hahaha! I felt so accomplished again. Mixing the different ingredients, watching colours change, and finally smelling the aroma of the cookies from the oven, whoa, i dont know how i can describe the euphoria i get from baking!

13Dec, celebrated Xiaoquan's and Kendra's belated birthday!

My alarm clock didnt ring. So i woke up at 815 when i was supposed to meet Dionne at 830! Rushed like maddddd and we headed to Marina Barrage! It was a pretty exciting journey, especially when we were afraid that the birthday girls would catch up with us. Thank God for Agent Xiaoqian 001 HAHAHA.

Wondered around with Dionne, bought a cute but expensive kite and waited for the rest to come!

Xiaoqian told a really bad lie but the gullible birthday girls were really gullible and they gullibly believed that her mother came all the way to Marina Bay topass her the drinks and kite which she left at home. LOL!

After much hesitation and planning, surprise surprise! (:

*Kendra's and Xquan's shocked expressions upon seeing Dionne & I*

We succeeded x1000, yayyy! (:

Eating + Laughing + Talking, and i was complaining that it was really hot.

So 10mins later, this really cute grey cloud came hovering above us...

I was drenched from head to toe LOL! RUSHED LIKE CRAZY trying to save as much of our stuff as possible and running for shelter.

5mins later, the very cute grey cloud floated away -_-

Settled down again for our picnic! Played saboteur, camwhored, ate, flew our kite, tangled and untangled the string, tangled and untangled the string again,and again, and again..

After several attempts, whooooooshhhhhh, our little cat flew really high! (:

YAY!

In conclusion, i do not have a flair for flying kites ):

It got too hot to bear after that so we left for Bugis! KOI + Jubeat + Dinner @ Pastemania (:

Ahh, what an exciting day!

But, screw the sun really.

My burnt is so bad that i'm like wearing another shirt when i take off my shirt -_- It isnt painful but it's just, really hothothothothot and uncomfortable ): Oh wellz. It's my first time flying a kite!

Running man now!

Ciaos! (:

Heart Vacancy

2011-12-08T23:55:00.006+08:00

Changi Point Mall has a Coffeebean branch that looks like a really good place to chill.

I shall go there soon!

Quality time with family yesterday (: And i packed my wardrobe, which is another thing striked off from my "To-do after O's (:" list!

DIMSUM BUFFET @ YUMCHA CHINATOWN with family and aunts today (: Even though i was really bloated and dying from all the food, running around chasing the little kids aided my digestion :D I could even finish another serving of mango pudding after playing bangbang with them whoohoo!

Love those kiddos!

Work tomorrow = $$$!

And i'm done with my Forensic Heroes III (: Back to Running Man and falling off my chair from laughing again HAHA!

YAY.

Alright, goodnight earthlings! (:

The taste of your honey is so sweet

2011-12-06T20:34:00.003+08:00

AYE, HELLO!

It's December already. Time is flying really quickly but I'm honestly enjoying every day i have! (:

So, to kick off the month of December, i went out with Baby Cherie and Baby Chawit on 1Dec!

After months of planning to iceskate and have xiaolongbao @ DinTaiFung for lunch (of course, treat from richboychawit_95), we abolished all our initial plans due to financial problems (of course again, no problem for neweracaps_chawit).

KBOX instead whoohooo.

Cherie was late, again. And then she brought us to Suntec, claiming that there was a Kbox outlet there. Walk up walk down walk here walk there, nope, no sign of Kbox. WELL DONE CHERIE. Ate at pizzahut and was laughing madly at everyone who walked pass this super strong fan that goes blowhairblow(!!!) The shock look people have when their hair gets strongly blown onto their faces is really really really funny haha.

Headed to Scape for Kbox (: Walked around after that. Chawit wanted to get caps (for the millionth time) and Cherie met her primary school crush HAHAHA. I wanted to see him but she didnt want to, so we were stuck in front of H&M, pulling and whining and i decided to be nice and let her win hahaha.

We only have one group photo.

with Chawit as a reflection, very unfortunately..

But it's honestly the best picture because the rest are like

LOL!!

2nd Dec

Worked today yay. Met Lynnette, Mark & Nicholas in the evening for dinner then once again, abolished our USS Fireworks plan to roam around Sentosa. We couldnt enter USS anyway because there was this crazy company which booked the entire USS for the whole day. Omgosh seriously. Expensive maxxxxxx.

So we practically walked from one station to another, exploring places I never knew existed in Sentosa. And we took this super weird and eerie and ulu route to the beach station. I honestly thought we would never gonna get out of that place when we ended up in the middle of nowhere. I was thinking of hitching a ride from any friendly-looking car that drove past...

Okay but anyway, we managed to reach the beach yay! (:

Camped at Macs, ate icecream at 1030pm, took too many tissues (HAHA) and made our way back! It was a great time spent i guess, walking to places i've never been to before, catching up and hahaha, doing something but really feeling like we're not doing anything. It's what i always wanted to do after exams (:

3rd & 4th Dec

Service & grandma's house. I feel so guilty for not going to grandma's house for such a long time D:

5th Dec

Worked and earned money again yay!

6th Dec

4.5 hours of sleep. Headed to school for drill. FINALLY GOT MY DI BADGE WHOOHOO!

Okay this photo is hilarious. Joscelin and Shijie's hands are in the sleeves of Weilin's and my frocks. It's hard to explain, but okay, it's really funny at that point of time LOL!!

After almost 7hours of drill, headed to 18 Chefs for late lunch @ 4.30pm! Had a super duper uber awesum time catching up and reminiscing! Hahaha, we were talking so much about lower secondary days and primary school and kindergarten and tuition. I felt like i could sit there forever, talking about old days with Shijie & sharing childhood stories with Weilin and Joscelin!

Nostalgic, really really nostalgic.

Alright, drama time now (:

Ciaos~

We found love in this hopeless place

2011-11-29T17:24:00.005+08:00

Holaz!

Sister is back home now that her exams are over! Yay! I can easily drag someone out of the house with me now hehe. Went to fetch her from her hostel with Mum and Dad on Saturday and while packing her room, i found this ...

16 flavours of jellybeans!! *.*

Ohmy. Indulging muchhhhhh. So i sat on her bed and tried every single flavour.

Conclusion: Green apple sucks.

Headed to Crystal Jade for dimsum (: Yay!

Sunday - Went cycling with sister in the morning! Didnt manage to wake up at 8.30, but at least it was still morning when we woke up hahaha.

Horses really really really have many flies on their bodies O:

Lunch. Bathe. And we're out again!

I am so so thankful for the pair of free IMax tickets (: I mean, its $22 per ticket, i'll never ever watch IMax in my life, if i didnt have free tix of course haha. Due to the lack of IMax movies screening, we settled on Puss in Boots! Puss in Boots was pretty entertaining! The screen is huggggeeeee, the seat's really comfortable and the sound system was like whoaaaa.

And they have geeky 3D glasses.

Not exactly a fan of 3D shows, because i cant really see much effects anddddd, it gives me a terrible headache + tired eyes! But stillll, it was a damn good experience! (:

(Note: DO NOT remind me that i spent $22 on a show that's on Funshion. Yes i know that already.)

Monday - OUTING WITH AWESOME PEOPLE (:

Met the councillors and we bused to ECP! Slacked here and there, rented bikes and set off!

Hainanjifan along the way while waiting for Kenneth and Bryan (late kings!).

We made it to NSRCC, but it was such a disappointment that we didnt have enough time to reach Changi jetty ):

It rained heavily while we were on our way back. But it was so fun being under the rain hahah (:

Headed to Parkway Parade for lunch @ Jack's place, freezing cold + expensive food + Caihao's moobs + Cuiwen's & Shujun's bookfair + bonding time with councillors (:

Continued our conversation at Manpuku with KOI (:

Love those people so so much! I cant wait to see them again on Bad Karma Day's one year anniversary!

*By the way, Cuiwen still owes us a forfeit from Hainanjifan!

Today - Kettling with Hannah at Far East (: It's almost like any Flag day, just that we couldnt move the pot around, so it was very hard to approach people. Met many different people as usual, there were really nice people who stuffed $10 into the pot and there's also those who would just look into the sky and pretend to be deaf or that you were invisible. All in all, it was a good experience (: It made me happy to be collecting donations and greeted by smiles!

Met Guangjun after that and he got us bbts yay (: And guess what he brought back for us from Taiwan?

PADS

HAHAHAH Joking. That's Marshmallows haha!

Alright, time for dramas (:

Ciaos!

The one that got away

2011-11-25T10:18:00.007+08:00

{/edited.

We keep all our promises be us against the world.

-
Today is a pretty eventful day (:

I am a hardworking girl.
I slept at 1am.
I crawled up at 8am today.
Left house at 8.30am.
And i went jogging with my Dad.

Everybody's reaction: Ö Ö Ö ?!?

Hahaha!
I left the park at 9.40am.
Okay, i obviously didnt spend the 1hr20min jogging in the park. I would have hyperventilated and died along the way HAHA. I did some jogging and brisk-walked 4rounds around the park. Estimated distance 9km in total WHOOHOOO (:

Walked to the market to meet my Mum for coffee (:

Walked(again) around Central.

Then, i did the most amazing thing - I went to shifu's house and had my very first baking lesson!!! (: Shifu just renovated her house, and it's really pretty. She has a walk-in closet and Every Single Thing needed to bake. I just felt so overwhelmed when i saw the oven lololol. But okay, i made steamed chocolate cake, so no oven needed. That was like a WHOA(Y) news for someone like me, who doesn't have an oven (who aspires to be a pastry chef.)

So here it is, my very first masterpiece!

Okay i know when you see something brown like this, the first thing that comes to your mind is shit. I mean, which chocolate cake doesnt ever look like shit?! But i bet if you could smell it, you would have wanted a bite instantaneously. It smells great, and it tastes great, kinda like brownies and perfect for chocolate lovers (:

Cant wait to try it on my own at home with all the materials Shifu gave me (She GAVE them to me, like all the measuring spoons, weighing scale and baking trays, omgosh. I am so touched i am going to cry).

Walked (again again) home with Mum to bathe and headed out to TM for Shabu shabu buffet with Mum, Dad, Aunty Lilian and Xinyi. Been a long time since i had shabushabu so it was really good (: My stomach wasn't very cooperative, but i still managed to eat more than what's worth of what i paid. And i was starving, since this was my only meal for the day + exercising in the morning.

I feel like a filial daughter today hehe.

当天地万物化为虚有

2011-11-24T22:24:00.005+08:00

你还是要幸福，
你千万不要再找到别人哭...

-
Today was an awesum day (:
Woke up early and felt tired (as usual) haha. Waited like a noob for Cherie who was lateeeeee before going to collect photos, buy stuff, meet Chearmin and camp at Gongcha to do our gifts for Mouktita! OH and, I was the first customer (: i've never had a recept number #1 yay!! (:

Bus-ed to Mouktita's house while laughing at Cherie #likeaboss with her shades HAHA!
I had a really great time whipping up lunch with the rest of the batch (: Epic phail sushi rolling, humongous rice balls, sushi with ~~fish skin~~ aluminium foil, mixing up chicken backside and chicken head, cooking spaghetti and dying from frying the chilli padi, watching 不能说的秘密again and udders! (:

Sucha wonderful bonding time with batch6 and i'm gonna miss Mouktita so so much :(

You're the apple of my eye

2011-11-24T09:31:00.003+08:00

我想成为一个很厉害的人，
让这世界因为有了我而有一点的改变，
而我的世界不过就是你的心。

那些年我们一起追过的女孩is such a great show (:
hate the ending though :(

2011-11-22T23:33:00.003+08:00

You know what?

-what?-

I earned $50 in 5hours today!!

You know what?

-what?-

I found out how to unlag (sucha word??) my facebook!!

You know what?

-what?-

I dyed my hair!!

YAY

Hasta la vista

2011-11-22T10:40:00.003+08:00

My 900th post on a memorable night (:

Prom in school wasnt that bad, albeit i might prefer a nicer background than the school hall for all the photos. Haha, it's the people who matters though! I guess the highlight for prom was really just phototaking. But very unfortunately, i wasnt in the mood to camwhore ._. so my phone has nil photos, got to depend on others for photo memories now, regret regret regret regret x10000!

Food was badddd, except the dessert! (: programme was alright haha. CONGRATS CHEARMIN, YOU TOTALLY DESERVE THE PROM QUEEN TITLE! (: (they should give you a sash or somethinggggg though! )

Felt like spending the night out, but i didnt bring my house keys and there was work today, so i went back home feeling so sad that i ended the night so early.

On a brighter note, i caught 11.11, 12.12 and 1.11 coincidentially yesterday (:

On the way to work now. Exhausted from drill and lack of sleep yesterday, but okay, i will survive for money.

Ciaos! (:

Come back come back come back to me

2011-11-20T12:23:00.003+08:00

Like you would you would if this was a movie.

18th - Playnation with GB girls (: went insane on band heroes and just dance HAHA! Dinner @ pastamania with Lynnette, Gwee, Adeline and Kenny. Caught up alot with Gwee on the way home yay, cheers to 13 years of our friendship! (:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY CHERIE & KENDRA! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANWEILIN! :D

19th - was spent watching tv and more tv and reading harry potter and playing with the little cussies who were running around, playing with bubbles, forming choochootrains, shooting me with their toy gun #likeajamesbond and taking turns to hug me when they sing the Barney song, aw (: you know, the sight of small fingers intertwined when they hold hands is really really sweet (:

20th - woke up at almost 12, which actully is a norm nowadays haha. Polishing boots with Gwee later and i shall aim to finish packing my room ._. The sight of it irks me but i refuse to start clearing up ehhh :(

2011-11-19T15:19:00.001+08:00

HAHAHA I HAD THE MOST BIZARRE DREAM.

I dreamt that i was pregnant and i gave birth to a boy ohmygosh hahaha

Cylons can't break us (:

2011-11-18T22:17:00.011+08:00

On the 17th of November, I defeated the Battlestar Galatica...

with a group of people i love so much as shown above!

So the day started with me dragging myself out of bed reallllly early in the morning, all tired from shopping with heels for the whole of 16th Nov, yet with immense anticipation for the day to begin (:

Met the PasirRis people at PasirRis. (XIAOQIAN OWE US BUBBLETEA FOR BEING LATE HAHA) And we did a makeover for the cute bear below before meeting Megan haha! Kudos to Lidan & Dionne! (:

Dingmeng overslept, so we headed to Amanda's house to carry out Plan A without her D:

"Hi Aunty, is Amanda still at home?"

Fortunately, she was! (: Prepared the cake while hiding between two cars and we were all soooo excited, until she saw us from her window on the second floor (If you would scroll up and see the top right hand corner of the photo of her house, yeah thats her room ._.)

Plan A failed miserably. HAHAHA.

After really good cake and applejuice, Jewel and I proceeded with Plan B, which again, failed miserably because our wonderful friend Dionne, wanted to borrow sunblock lotion. Apparently, we were upstairs, Amanda was supposed to be downstairs, but she came up to get the sunblock lotion for Dionne, sooooo, pooooofs! *_*

AND THEN, WE SET OFF FOR UNIVERSAL STUDIOS! :D

Even though Plan B failed at the start, we attempted to continue it again. Had a wayyyyy crazy time planning to stick & watching Xiaoqian stick the paper on Amanda's back without her noticing. And when she finally did it, and everybody else was rejoicing, the train halted to a stop and the paper flew off ._. HAHAHAHA. I bet the people in the train were laughing at us.

Failed V-shaped JamesBond formation HAHAHA

I think Jewel looks alot like me in this photo O:

Baby Cherie! (:
"THIS IS YOUR TICKET"

Dionne and her boyfriend, Garrett, who had an affair with me :P

Adrenaline rush upon reaching USS! I was jumping and hopping and running around even though it was already my third time haha!

The next few hours were one of the most memorable of all times, running around crazily and wondering if the rest would follow, floating around excitedly after rollercoaster rides, taking crazy photos and screaming on rides.

Awww Dionne~
They are really pretty!!
HAHA. A failed seductive attempt to look like House Bunny!

That man's finger covered like 1/4 of the picture -_-

VICTORY AFTER CONQUERING OUR FIRST RIDE ON BATTLESTAR GALATICA (HUMAN) WHOOHOO!

VICTORY AFTER CONQUERING BATTLESTAR GALATICA (CYLON) YAYYY!

We were trying so hard to make him smile HAHA
Ghost horses! (:
"Oh please Almighty Claudia, could you please let us out from this tiny dirty hole?" HAHAHA!

Sat all the rides, watched all/most of the shows, took many photos, did insane stuff, laughed so much, laughed so hard, I was really really really accomplished, and I'm sure everyone else was too (:

Sat Cylon 4 times and Human 3 times and i wish i had time to sit them a hundred times over. The ecstasy that overwhelmed me every time i was waiting for a rollercoaster ride, or after a rollercoaster ride, was such a fantastic one! Idk how to describe it, but it just felt so so so good! Every 360 degrees turn tossed my frustrations away, every sudden acceleration left my tears behind, every steep drop, every up and down made me realise that the world had so much more to enjoy than feeling sad for my little disappointed heart. I wanted to do it again and again and again and have that feeling stuck in my head so I'll never ever forget it.

Pizza shop was closed at 7 since it was a weekday so we couldnt have our dinner there, very unfortunately :(

Left to shop at the candystore! (: It's really one of my favourite place. Somehow, there's some sort of bliss engulfing you when you step in (:

They have huge M&M's.
And huge lollipops!
And a large variety of jellybeans O: Very very cool!

Had dinner at Vivo & we were all dying on the way home with sore legs and no seats ._.

To sum it all up, i had an extremely awesome day! Shall end it off here to watch tv, soooo, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY AMANDA! :D

Ciaos!

Post-O's

2011-11-17T23:08:00.003+08:00

Emo emo emo emo emo.

Okay, yes emo aside for now, i am finally doing real blogging.

So it's the end of Big O's haha. After endless months of prelims, Big O's doesnt really seem Big & Scary & Intimidating anymore. Like it's just another harmless, okay a little more important, prelims all over again. Hahaha, we all thought we'd cry and scream with relief on the day of our last paper, but nah. Keep calm and carry on.

But i still get excited (like the "ooooooh!" feeling) when that sudden feeling of not having any worries for academics runs across my head. It's great it's great. And i am guilty for spending all my post O's, up till now, with my friends instead of family haha. Next week shall be for family (Y)

15th - Celebrated Hannah's uber belated birthday! Udders + Porn's + Frolick (: Great catch-up time with HABA, i love those people!

16th - Shopping @ 313 + Far East with Xquan, Xqian, Kendra, Celine, Amanda! I survived the day with heels, accomplished like whoaaa! Haha.

17th - TODAY WAS PURE AWESOME. But i'm too tired to post ._. Another day with plentiful of pictures alrighttttt.

Goodnight earth (:

It's been a while

2011-11-17T00:03:00.002+08:00

She told me 'it always feels like the end when things go bad.'
How do we know if it's the end then.
Is there any chance that now isnt.

Day 2. Still dying.

Say hello to goodbye

2011-11-16T00:51:00.002+08:00

I hate that i let you down
And i feel so bad about it
I guess karma comes back around
Cause now i'm the one that's hurting
And i hate that i made you think
That the trust we had is broken

Day1. Still dying, no doubt O's are over.

Heart-wrenched.

2011-11-15T10:18:00.000+08:00

Cause tonight i feel like an astronaut,
Sending SOS from this tiny box.

Day 0. I am dying -_-

Burnt

2011-11-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

Can anybody hear me?

Am i talking to myself?

My mind is running empty,

In this search for someone else.

Who doesnt look right through me.

It's all just static in my head.

Can anybody tell me why, I'm lonely like a satellite?

15dec 1240am, I shall take this path alone from now onwards.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KENDRA x3

2011-11-14T10:18:00.008+08:00

HELLO LOVELY (:

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEENTH!

You are such a crazy girl whom i love so much! Why do i love you when you always bully me, fart in public, provoke Anthea to attack me and make me sad about being so short, i dont know either. But God has put us together in this phase of life, and i am so thankful for it (: Otherwise, there wouldnt be anyone who adds 3/4 bottle of salt into icelemonteas, play with long straws with me, laugh at me when i feel like crying all of a sudden, study till late nights, poke my abs (LOL), free steamboats, and so much more!

Yepz. Really want to encourage you to keep fighting no matter what happens! I know you're strong, like literally (I am sure you can defeat Anthea if you want to hehe). And even though we've seen too much at this age, more than what we really want to, but I guess we just have to keep going with an open heart! At least, at that point of time when everything seemed to be falling apart, i had you and you had me!

God doesnt lead us to a storm that we dont have the power to overcome! If there's anything, always remember that I am just a call/a text/a few bus-stops away (:

Sorry that we couldn't celebrate it with you on your actual day, so i'm dedicating a post for you here! (You must feel very honoured, i cant remember the last time i dedicated a post O:) We'll celebrate it with you (officially)after O's, pinky swear k! (:

And yes, PLEASE keep your wallet safe and pretty like you promised HAHA. I will do an annual spot check! :P

LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

2011-11-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

It's not that i dont care. But you dont get how it's really better to pretend that i dont care rather than admit that it's killing me.
It's like tearing every single piece of meat, ripping every piece of flesh and breaking every single bone.
And you know what's the worst thing?

You're doing it deliberately, while i'm trying so hard.
Hell. Don't push it.

Got a clue

2011-11-12T15:11:00.001+08:00

I wonder how many burns the skin can handle before the scars begin to seep into the soul.

Hold it there just a little longer

2011-11-10T17:19:00.002+08:00

I am so so so broke.
I have never felt so broke everrrrrr.
I feel so stupid to not have kept my money for after O's.
I am so so so so so broke.
I shall not go shopping after the 16th, even if i do, i shall buy no thing.
I shall not watch movies during the holidays, okay, perhaps ONE movie.
I shall scrimp on my food (and bubbletea).
I shall work.
I shall pay my dad back for the money he gave me for no reason.

Ohmygoshhhhhh. Can money please drop from the sky lolz.

Arise & Build

2011-11-05T21:11:00.003+08:00

I trust that my sacrifice will return in tenfolds, twentyfolds, hundredfold and that You'll continue to build my family and twine the bonds close, like how im building Yours.
Yes indeed, arise and build.

Mistletoe

2011-11-04T18:40:00.003+08:00

"And when you feel like trying again, reach out take my hand." :')

End of a packed week! (:
KOI + shopping + hearing shopkeepers gossiping about us because we were in uniform and they think we are YOUNG AND MONEYLESS KIDS (you watch outttt, i'll be back -_-) + fathers being millionaires (and your boss OR exboss HAHA) + talking about everything under the sun with no worries in our heads + KINECTING & SEXY DANCES (HAHAHA)

What a great day! And its gonna be even more awesomeee since im ending off the day with my beloved councillors in bonding camp (:
YAY.

Dreams in colour

2011-11-02T16:57:00.002+08:00

Haha, striking off exams from my olevels timetable day by day is really really satisfying.
It's already the mid of the second week and before we know it, it'll be time to tear notes and burn books yayyy.

I had a ridiculous dream last night.
I dreamt that i was in Hogsmeade (It's a place in Harry Potter for those who are absolutely clueless haha) and in this really large candy shop (it's like all the branches of candy empire joined together) and i was eating Gobstoppers. Apparently, normal Gobstoppers reach the white bite-able layer after 2 colours, but mine changed colours like a 100 million times (i am obviously exaggerating) and i started crying. I spitted it out and it became a bean. And then....i planted it. And....i climbed it. And....i met a giant. Okay you know what comes next eh.

I forgot where it stopped. But okay, then when i came back after Physics today, i found a box of gobstoppers on my table!!! HAHAHA.

Okay im hungry.

Paradise

2011-10-24T23:59:00.005+08:00

When she was just a girl
she expected the world
but it flew away from her reach
and the bullets catch in her teeth
Life goes on, it gets so heavy
the wheel breaks the butterfly
every tear a waterfall
in the night the stormy night she'll close her eyes
in the night the stormy night away she'd fly

25th October, official start of Olevels. Was so worried last night, until Justine called and said a prayer for me. It calmed me down greatly. Today was fine. It felt like the end of O's after finishing our english papers, albeit its only the first. Hahaha, so, feeling that overwhelming sense of accomplishment after finishing the first(only) papers, i rewarded myself to a good pepperlunch, a good Mcflurry and a good gongcha.

I felt like a pig. Kill me.

On a side note,
I AM LEARNING BAKING AFTER O'S, I AM LEARNING BAKING AFTER O'S.
AFTER O'S IS IN LESS THAN A MONTH'S TIME.
I AM LEARNING BAKING IN LESS THAN A MONTH'S TIME.
I am so so so happy. Like finally. Two years ;_;

Okay i still feel like olevels are over. Shit this feeling.
Goodnight world.

iSad

2011-10-23T20:25:00.000+08:00

Lugubrious + incensed.

The worst thing that could happen was to spend the last few hours anticipating, buying dinner happily and finding out my soup is all in the plastic bag instead of my container -_- eat my shit zz.

At least i have my gongcha, with brown crystal jelly (finally).

Oh baby there ain't no mountains high enough

2011-10-20T08:01:00.003+08:00

The morning air is so refreshing.
But nothing can loosen the strangle.
I am so so so suffocated.
Im starting to think that all this is happening just before O's because i havent been praying hard enough.

Sparks fly

2011-10-18T00:27:00.004+08:00

Was staring at my o's timetable. Doesnt feel so bad. I believe it'll zoom by so quickly without us knowing.
For now, i shall try to enjoy whatever time i have left with whoever im studying with (:
Like all the coffee-till-im-sick, laughing at little angmor kids, guessing whether female or male walks past next, deciding where to dinner, stupid ratings, monopoly and upsize craze, bullseye darts, hearing Taylor swift or Adele or Glee or the coffeebean playlist over and over again, playing with awkwardly long straws, refilling drinks like no tomorrow, scandal scandals~, guys going toilet together... It's fun haha.

It's like a cycle every single day for the past 2/3 weeks, sleep wakeup meetup study dinner home tv sleep. So mundane, hell boring, but it's not thatttttttt bad. Stupid things happen each day. Im still laughing. There are times i feel so punctured, but the tears come and go and a little laughter and out of the ordinary can fix that hole in my armour. And i just have to constantly remind myself not to be overly stressed.

Hang tough dudes.
I am too!

*ps. I managed to catch a night movie amidst it all (:

Let the sun dry up all your tears and fears

2011-10-16T14:35:00.002+08:00

It's times like this that stuffing 3 Daims into your mouth at one go doesnt even keep your tears away.
So horrible. Why oh why do i break down so easily.

2011-10-11T18:55:00.001+08:00

Feels good to see old friends. And make new friends with friends of old friends hahaha.

2011-10-09T22:32:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, we just want to work so hard so that someday, we'll become successful and see the looks on the faces of those who had ever looked down on us and made us out to be worthless.

Fighting does no help

2011-10-08T23:59:00.003+08:00

No matter how much i dont want to be taught using the hard way, i can never learn, if it didnt came right smack in the face.
Reality hits that hard, really.

It's okay. I'll be okay. We'll be okay. They'll be okay.
It's a mad mad world but I can handle this. We can handle this.

But we're all too scared to say the things worth saying

2011-10-07T00:10:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry for being a sucker at this hopeless bullshit.
You dont know how pathetic i feel right now.
& oh hey, my cramps is making me feel so much better. I feel like stabbing whatever's contracting and pulling inside me.

Make it or break it

2011-09-30T09:58:00.003+08:00

It suddenly dawned on me that, i can complain and complain and complain about school, but im actually the happiest there most of the times. It's mostly the fatigue for waking up in the morning that makes me resent school ._. haha im not gonna go on about how i regret complaining and all, cause it was truly what i felt then. I mean, we never know how to cherish anything, anything at all, only after we lose it.

It's graduation today.
And being valedictorian has marked a remarkable ending to my 4 years in ahs (: the preparation of the speech had made me reminisce so much, and i know i have so much to thank the school for. I hope things go smoothly later. I WILL NOT STUTTER I WILL NOT READ WRONGLY I WILL REMEMBER MY SPEECH I WILL NOT SHIVER I WILL NOT BE AFRAID ._. everyone shall be teddybears later hahaha.

(:

Truly giving

2011-09-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

Hihihihi.

My eyes are threatening to close anytime soon.
This is what happens when you be a part time rag and bone ~~man~~woman, rush dinner and rush for tuition then let amath kill whatever's left in your head. Or my head.

Cip's really accomplishing! Hahaha.
137 with kenny and dave, being really efficient, helping others, getting free drinks, recognised efforts, help from a postlady, walking like we owned the road, free gongcha, 18chefs with bad service. Yadda yaddaaaa! It was a great experience, i felt so kind after that haha. And i think i burnt at least 1 calory?! (please please please)

Random: i realise i despise grapes that are out of shape ._. I stare at their skins and make sure they're not scarred and make sure they're round before i pop them in my mouth hahahaha.

Random random: JOVENLEE YOU STALKERRRRRRRR.

2011-09-25T01:26:00.001+08:00

Ahhhhh, i am contented.
Finally got to watch johnny english hahaha.
And i finished another hk drama (:

2011-09-24T16:03:00.002+08:00

It sucks so much when you know that people you care so much for wouldnt take the effort to fill up the gaps in future.
What else can i say but hide my disappointment and pretend i dont really give a damn as well.

2011-09-24T09:50:00.002+08:00

STUPID BUS DRIVER.
ISNT IT OBVIOUS I WAS STANDING THERE TO BOARD YOUR FREAKING BUS AND BECAUSE NO ONE WAS ALIGHTING, YOU ZOOM PAST ME WITHOUT STOPPING?!

I am late for tuition zz
But w/e, i get to read more of my harry potter.

Like a satellite we're flying

2011-09-24T00:46:00.002+08:00

Breathing.

Another week to not having to wake up early.

All iz well.

I love you Chew Yun Jin! (:

2011-09-24T00:42:00.004+08:00

HAHAHAHA THIS IS HILARIOUS.
It's so vulgar...BUT ITS REALLY SO FUNNY HAHAHA

Chocolate souffles

2011-09-21T14:55:00.003+08:00

I drank a cup of expired milk and i am perfectly fine.
It's good cause it means i have a tough stomach. It's bad cause i dont get to skip school! D;

I want study break so badly because the feeling of waking up at 550 every morning with my eyes -_- just makes me feel terrible for the rest of the day. I honestly dont know how i've been surviving, or did it only get more tiring these two years hmph..

The guilt feeling kicked in just now. I hate it when it comes because it makes me feel uncomfortable all over, like i've just done something really wrong, when in fact, it's only because i cant solve all my amath. And it's terrible because it makes me want to cancel all my shopping plans ._.

On a side note, wet handprint-ing everyday's fun (: And just laughing at the most ridiculous stuff in class with my classmates brings so much joy!

vhads' aboud dit.

toodles.

2011-09-14T17:01:00.000+08:00

I feel loved :')

Hold your arms up out wide

2011-09-12T23:25:00.005+08:00

First day of school after the long break wasnt as torturing.
I did well for my papers, i read harry potter, i laughed like no tomorrow(!!) with jieying and blingz, i played soccer and burn little fats but at least i got to play soccer, i skipped recess without feeling hungry, i went home feeling happy, dad's transferred to the ward (PHEW), hughug daddy, studying in the hospital, John being such a joker and disrupting me from my studies, admitting something that made me feel like blushing hahaha, ending the day by receiving a call to hear someone say Goodnight, sweet dreams, rest well (:

All is well. I pray for good health for my parents.
Alright, goodnight, sweet dreams, rest well for a long day ahead tomorrow earthlings (:

Stardust

2011-09-11T15:32:00.002+08:00

You see a storm heading our way
You know the cold can make things delay,
Up here it can't do any harm.
The cracks show in the concrete jungle
Tear apart the weakest of hearts,
Up here you'll be safe in my arms.
Oh.

I know that you're feeling like we're only dreaming
Well don't look down 'cause this is real.

-
God i dont want this to be real :( we cant afford it.

2011-09-09T11:35:00.002+08:00

Live update 1: it is 11am. My mother has kept her promise and didnt wake me up. Instead, she let Dylon into my room. He climbed onto my bed and became my alarm clock.'姨姨WAKE UP!!!!' -pulls hand-

Live update 2: it is 11.15am. I just finished brushing my teeth. Am pulled to the trampoline to jump with Dylon lollllll

Let the heart speak louder than the head

2011-09-08T21:09:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPERMAN! :D

Yesterday was a hilarious day. I never felt so retarded, standing at the same spot in comic's connection for almost an hour, trying to find snsd photos and seeing jessicas everywhere but no tiffany. Still had to call weiqiang to train all the way down to pasir ris to settle ite lolz. I think the shopkeeper thought i wanted to steal, or i was some psycho who didnt have internet and had to stare at snsd photos in the shop omgosh.
Conclusion: 1. they should totally reorganise their cards according to groups and not lump taiwanese idols and korean idols together ._.
2. I dont like kpop more after yesterday hahaha.

Met the rest at bugis after being pangsehed at yoshinoya by birthdayboy, super embarrassing and loud birthday song/speech, HUGEEEEE cup of milktea on the house, laughing at John's fb and watching him stomp off in embarrassment, arcade and train home with Cynthia (:

-
I am a happy girl now.
Home from tampines with 2 big boxes of mooncakes(SNOWSKIN YAY) and a large pack of Garrett's popcorn(HAHA DIONNE BE JEALOUS I AM EATING YOUR BOYFRIEND). And i have persuaded my mummy to let me sleep in tmr since it's my final weekday. Oh screw it, friday never seemed to come so quickly during school weeks zz. But okay, putting that aside, i am looking forward to be greeted by Dylon when i wake up tomorrow morning :DD been so long since i last saw him and i shall share my popcorn with him and let him play with my angry bird (:

OH, note to self: post about iChiong (:
Omgosh my champagne white chocolate snowskin is crazyyyy yumyum!

Mack deuce up

2011-09-03T18:32:00.002+08:00

Boy oh boy, i really dont like it when plans are cancelled after anticipating it for so long.
I feel empty :(

2011-09-02T22:52:00.003+08:00

Melts my heart when i see friends still blogging.
Where did everybody else go ._.
Okay, probably ever since i removed my tagboard, it's hard to relink.

Deleted a chunk of my links.
But wellllllll, there were a few i really didnt want to strike off. Even though it was gone or dead, i wanted to keep their names there. But i didnt.

Dont know if you guys still come back here, but i really really really miss zheru joy shermaine christie jalyn. December 19, the day christie came back from aussie, yes i remember (: Zheru's megahuge trampoline, meatball spaghettis, Shermaine's chalet, exchanging christmas gifts at WS Macs (I clearly remember which table haha). I wonder if our paths will cross as life takes us on our individual roads.

Till then (:

One day when the sky is falling, i'll be standing right next to you

2011-09-02T20:16:00.004+08:00

After months and persistent and endless whining and complaining, i am finally gonna learn baking after os. Hooray!

Initially felt like going on a walk around the neighbourhood. Then decided against it. And nowwww, I AM HAVING FUN RAPPING TO SUPER BASS HAHAHAA. GOSH THIS HAS TO BE THE MOST FUN THING EVER.

CELEST JIAJIE I AM GOING TO WIN YOU TWO IN RAPPING THIS HAHA!

TGIF?

2011-09-02T18:50:00.002+08:00

I dont like how you'll call your friend to have dinner with us.
Im not hungry but im going out for dinner because i know you wont be happy if i dont.
But now i realise, you're only unhappy that im not going out for dinner when your friend isnt going ._.
Isnt friday supposed to be for us?
I know you just dont want it to be awkward. You just dont want to be left alone with him. I think i know why all this's happening but i cant do any shit about it eh.

And i cant believe you, too, gave up a friday night for tv.
It didnt used to be like that.
I miss my sister :((

Footprints

2011-09-01T16:35:00.010+08:00

Back to Loyang this afternoon (: I remember how i wanted to say this everytime i see someone running when i first entered AHS!

Feeling weird. Weird feeling.

I never though i would have much attachment for my primary school. It all felt so much like unhappy memories, yeah there were good ones, but tell me Loyang, and i think of the stupid arse principal and all the shit i went through.

But no, what came flooding just now when i toured the school were really nice feelings, like all the tiny tiny stuff that i used to take for granted. They werent like those bigbig happiness that left a huge impact, but they certainly had additive effects.

They have a new "KIDS HAPPY CORNER" LOL!

Someone wrote a card for the cleaners (:

SO SWEET RIGHT AW

Favourite place hasnt changed yet (:

HAHAHA.

There was never this great wall of china thingthing.

I was part of the making (: We won some happy toilet award HAHA

Guess we were the only 3 people allowed to walk around the whole school haha. See how big shot we are in primary school ^^ But the 2 hours spent there was like a photo montage of bits and pieces of my 6 years in primary school. Talking to Mrs Lim about the screwed up principal and what we faced 4 years ago was like whoaaaa, and apparently, it's still so often talked about. 6.1'07 definitely left a hugeeeee mark in loyang (:

I'm happy. It was great to have caught up with the teachers and Amanda and Yueren (: And yes, i had the privilege to talk the new principal. She's been dying to talk to me HAHA!
And my conclusion's that, she's really great :D

byeeeeeeeee

This one's for you and me

2011-08-31T22:21:00.002+08:00

Official end of exams today O:

Officer's cadet school today (:
Was a great learning experience, whats with the rationing and camou cream! Had a lot of fun and dinner was an awesome catchup with kenny baby and josy baby (:

Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away

2011-08-29T16:39:00.008+08:00

HOLA!

Yesterday was pure awesome!

Flea and getting lost and "we're accidentally going to FarEast" and gongcha and dionne zaogenging and epic phail jumpshots and shatter shatter shatter nailpolish is super duper uber omgosh cool much.

Idk how i spent my money so quickly. Regretted buying the apple juice but oh well, its for charity ehhh! And the angrybirds + sesame street sponge stickers for Dylon and Darius. It's like really expensive but okay, watching them squeal with delight (Confirm plus chop) will definitely be worth the money (:

Was starting to regret spending on the way home. But i got over it quickly. In fact, i was rather sad i bought so little hahaha.

AND OH DAMN, MAJOR REGRET: I totally should have bought the shatter nail polish. Sighhhhh.

Laughed so much (: And i'm so thankful for these people in my life.

Time for bio(!!), then cheers to more brainless days again. At least till September holidays (not) start!

Byeeeeee!

IM SO UPSET

2011-08-28T00:54:00.001+08:00

It's a quarter after one.
I'm all alone
and i need you now

i want cherie cherie cherie cherie :((((

Let's just take it slow

2011-08-28T00:10:00.002+08:00

Am having a deep conversation with Jontay. I feel like telling him everything i've been holding inside because i know he'll understand. Feels so buried, and i tell myself, all the time, not to think about it. But yes, it's there. I know it, we all know it. That disappointment will never ever disappear just like that. It's not gonna be easy for it to fade either.

I really thought we left the home we've been working so hard for in good hands. How could it just collapse so easily?

It's such a sour feeling, to see it rise and built up when we first came in, and watch it crumble when we're leaving. And the worst part is that, i cant do anything about it but watch it shake and topple. And every droplet of sweat, tear and blood to be buried deep underneath. My heart sinks with it every time i think about it.

It was not what i expected. Not what we expected.
What can i do now.

We dont need to rush this

2011-08-27T00:04:00.009+08:00

Bit those 2 weeks like gummy bears (:

Thankful for Celest(NO NOT THE HAIR PART) and Jiajie! After all this while, really, you guys are the ones who know when i really need a small surprise for encouragement x3

Feels greaaaat, even though there's mock exams in 4 weeks and there's still bio mcq next wed, but since...

Makes so much sense. It got me thinking about some other stuff, but okay whudever :/
I've got this in my fridge at the moment. In fact, mine looks twice as pretty. Total indulgence! :D And i just had a great tv + painting nails session. Hahah my mother got a shock when she saw my nails. And she wanted to do it too x)

Aiming for an 8hour packing of my room tomorrow. Not for the preparation of olevels, but i just cant stand it being so messy. And if i have time, i'll start my new drama serial. Yay!

Anywayyy, cant wait for flea on sunday! And kiteflying next sunday! And watching Celest cut her hair. And wii-ing at Jiajie's! Really anticipating a brainless weekend.

Cheerios :D

See no more

2011-08-26T19:19:00.000+08:00

I don't want to wait for you
I don't want to wake up thinking, hoping
You'll get it right this time

不痛了

2011-08-25T20:53:00.003+08:00

今天是华语日！

原来纸飞机也能让我那么快乐!
好想每天都折,
从五楼丢下来，
再许个愿，
希望爸爸妈妈不再吵架...

2011-08-25T06:21:00.004+08:00

CELEST I CANT BELIEVE YOU MADE ME CUT MY HAIR FOR YOU TO MAKE A WIG AND NOW MY PONYTAIL IS SO SHORT IM FULL OF REGRETS. I MISS MY NOT-VERY-LONG HAIR SO MUCHHHHH D: And i feel like making you cut your hair too tsk tsk :(

I want to be rapunzel at this momentttt ._.
Im sorry baby it wasnt voluntary. Okay it was but urghhh, just grow back asap k!

Someone like you

2011-08-24T11:25:00.003+08:00

'I've crossed the whole world for someone like you' (:

It really really is such a sweet song. And the radio always seem to play it when i need it most. It gets me all hyped up and ready to sing along no matter how tired i felt before that (:

Life's been okay! Heavy papers are over so i spent much of my time ytd watching tv, sleeping, playing with my new phone app and singing and blasting my earpiece for 2hours nonstop while doing amath. Massive headache afterwards but the ironic thing was, i felt great (: exams period never felt this good lol!

Currently indulging on a $3.10 cup of gongcha! (:
1. Feels like couching and finishing all my available hk dramas
2. Feels like fulfilling my 2am wish (Y)
3. Feels like seeing Jiajie and Celest and Leon O:

I am a happy girl now.

Louder

2011-08-23T06:32:00.002+08:00

Biobiobio i shall conquer your! Fear thee'!

Once again i've been dreaming of my postexam plans. And even after O's plans but i kinda forgot all of them hahahah screw it x)
Brilliant news: i've got new hk dramas x4! YAY YAY YAYYYY. Shall couch at home after prelim3!

Tas! (:

Significance

2011-08-18T14:32:00.003+08:00

In a battle

Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do so much for them.
Its kinda funny how i like it when you get frustrated at times because i dont reply your text (:
Its from there that i know you're expecting alot from me.

Geared up. 2weeks, lets bite this thing!

Trust

2011-08-12T23:44:00.002+08:00

Kept convincing myself to trust that you'll keep those promises, to trust that you'll never make me run this crap alone.
Trust. Its such an easy word to spell. But such a hard one to keep yourself doing.
Im struggling so much. But i wont stop believing. Dont die on me :(

Limp with love

2011-08-10T00:05:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday Singapore! :D

可能是我太自私

2011-08-05T22:38:00.002+08:00

Sometimes walking alone in the rain when the world feels topsy turvy really helps to relieve some part of the burden in your heart.
It did work for me.

The week has passed really quickly. And though i cant wait for exams to end, i dont want it to come either.
Urgh. The feeling of facing the books everyday's terrible.
And im alone at home on a friday night. I miss my sister :((

8

2011-08-01T07:53:00.004+08:00

I welcomed the new month with a bucket full of tears and mucus lol.
I realise crying doesnt always help me feel better. It merely stops even more tears from flowing because i ran out of it.
Took me that long to realise.

Hi August. May you be friendly (:

More than i could ever ask for.

2011-07-31T20:32:00.001+08:00

Ever ever :')

2011-07-27T18:39:00.002+08:00

Please dont let this ever change.
I know i wont be able to smile anymore if it does.
I cant afford it.

Sixteenth sugardunk!

2011-07-27T06:29:00.006+08:00

Im officially 16! (: (a few days back)

So before i get abit reluctant of blogging about what happened like for my taiwan trip, i shall post a small one here right now. Without photos though, since i refuse to switch on my lappie.

I've been anticipating the 23rd but yet again, i didnt want it to come. It served as a motivation for months and months and i'd rather continue that exciting feeling of anticipation then have it to be come and be over in a blink of an eye. But okay, its over D: shall have to find a new motivation then..

BUT THEN AGAIN, IT WAS SUCH AN AWESOME 16TH SPENT.
Would really like to thank everyone for their wishes, whether it was on fb, via sms, emails, or letters and cards! :D every one of them really made me smile!
And of course, the people who took time to spend it with me! (;
THANKYOU HABA for the really great thaifood treat and catching up with great icecream!

THANKYOU WEILIN ADELINE GWEE LYNNETTE JOSCELIN KENDRA for that BIGBIG surprise and the pretty card and present. I had such a great time catching up with you girls. And rollerblading was so so epic! i'll never forget how we crawled up the slope on all fours, adeline grabbing the plant, shijie sliding backwards while laughing at me and adeline, joscelin's learning journey hehe, how shijie and i collided and i fell and laughed like mad crazyyyy! Im sorry we didnt catch the sunset cause i was being such a spoilt brat that needs aircon HAHA. Lets watch the sunset to 2012 together x3!

THANKYOU XIAOQUAN DIONNE XIAOQIAN CELINE KENDRA for the surprise but was ruined by my coming out of house early HAHA. Really appreciate it and even though it wasnt the initial surprise plan at my house, but it came as a big one at the void deck! x) I think the doraemon cake's really cute hehe. And a great dinner at Buddy Hoagies and Dionne trying to lie to me about the black pouch HAHAHA, and our bishibashi/basketball/jubeat madness! (: arcade's really never dull with you guys! :D the card's realllyyyyy pretty too and i smiled at every single one of the msg (: will really cherish every bit of sweetness in my present! x3

THANKYOU CELEST JIAJIE LEON CAT for the uber great gift and card by post! :D i'll make sure i wont tear the pillow hehe. Really appreciate all that you guys have done!! Meet up soon kayz x3

THANKYOU JUSTINE AUGUSTINE BRYAN WEIQIANG for a great food outing at suntec! And the surprise birthday song and cake! Even tho you guys could have warned me not to stuff myself with dessert before that LOL :X and for the pretty card and dress! :D

THANKYOU MARK CHEARMIN CHAWIT CHERIE LIDAN SHUJUN MEGAN AMANDA for the cards and gifts! :DD really appreciate it!
THANKYOU LEON for the overseas package! Miss you super much and i hope you're coming back soooonnnnn!

And last but not least, THANKYOU MUMMY DADDY JIEJIE for the wonderful dinner and for treating me like a queen on my birthday! (; and for the birthday cake and watching a midnight harry potter movie even though they had to wake up early the next day x3

Had 5 birthday cakes this 16th O: and i really seriously honestly enjoyed myself. Definitely awesome memories i'll cherish forever. Thankyou thankyou :D

2011-07-20T10:56:00.001+08:00

If I die young bury me in satin
Lay me down on a bed of roses
Sink me in the river at dawn
Send me away with the words of a love song

Emerge

2011-07-17T00:58:00.002+08:00

Emerge was truly an eyeopening experience. I am so jealous that i cant play any instrument ._.
It's yet another great saturday ((:

Stay upon it

2011-07-13T22:44:00.002+08:00

Am trying not to be afraid that one day, all this will stop.
And that i probably wont remember your face- but only the times we had and words exchanged which i would start wishing had lasted a teeny bit longer.

Not enough, aint ever enough.

What faith can do (:

2011-07-10T23:06:00.003+08:00

Saturday.
Free Koi :D
JAYESSLEE x3 + service!
Dinner like beggars HAHA
Bad news.
Midnight bowling :D

Minus the bad news, i had a superb day (:

Every teardrop is a waterfall

2011-07-07T20:08:00.001+08:00

Am so ever disappointed. How could you have done that after all that you've promised us. When will you ever ever wake up. When will all this ever ever be over. Urgh im feeling so terrible.

2011-07-05T18:31:00.000+08:00

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart?

2011-07-01T19:22:00.002+08:00

Tgif. Its 1st July (:
First school week had gone by rather quickly. Probably due to the anticipation for prelims to end that made it zoomed haha. Not forgetting phone calls with funny people that i can laugh about even after the conversation ends. Though that leaves me completely drained the next day, i think its pretty worth it (:

Rightz, till the end of prelims, hang on!